Seeing the
budget is out (Malaysia) and the election over (USA) let’s get back to
important stuff: dark romance books 😊 You may have noticed that dark
authors tend to hide their true identity from the public, whereas I’m right in
your face about it. So, here’s the story about that.
I’ve been a
creative for over twenty years. I sold my first feature to the New Straits
Times back in 1996 and my first magazine article to Cleo a few months later.
Between 1996 and 2016 I sold more than 3000 articles to publications in over 12
countries.I also wrote and sold some
short stories.
In 2013, I
went back to school and took a Masters in Counselling. I already had a degree
in psychology, so that was me going back to my roots.
In 2015, I
was finishing my studies and writing Katz Tales, a sweet feel-good newspaper
column under my own name, a tech column under a pen name, and dark romance as
AJ Adams. I also had a legacy in erotica writing as Storm Chase.
I kept my
lives separate because that was how good marketing worked. So, one day I’m
sitting in a workshop when this woman says, “Ooooh, I know about you. You write
books. Under a different name!”
The smirk said
it all. I knew exactly what the nasty cow was up to.
Of course,
the others in the room were curious.
“You write
books?”
“What do
you write?”
The nasty
cow was hoping I’d blush, stammer and be embarrassed. BIG MISTAKE! I’ve had my person
and my work picked apart by strangers in public for decades, so I am incredibly
hard-nosed.
So, I
beamed at the cow and squealed, “Ohmigod, you’re a fan? AWESOME!” Then, at the
others, “I write dark romance. That’s really violent stories about the cartel
with seriously filthy dirty pornographic sex scenes.”
In
straightlaced Malaysia, this was gobsmacking information.
And because
I’m a bitch, I said to the cow, “Which of my books do you like best? The Cartel
stories or the Storm Chase erotica?”
She backed
off and never came near me again.
But it did
make me think. Women are often shamed for writing romance, it’s an equality issue,
and I didn’t want any future hassle. I might have hidden my writing or stopped
(Ha! NEVER. But technically, it’s an option) but I decided an in-your-face
attitude would fix it.
I put my
pen name on my personal social media, linked all my profiles very clearly and
for good measure cross-posted. Anywhere you look, you see the whole me.
Marketing
today is quite different and we’re moving increasingly away from using separate
pen names for every genre, so that’s working out okay. As for my various lives,
there will be gossip but frankly, I don’t care. I am who I am and people can choose
whether to like that or not.
So, that’s
why I plaster my various names all over this timeline. Do let me know what you
think.
Have a
happy day! And please do ready my books. Start with Helpless by AJ Adams and
then move on to the Zeta Cartel novels, starting with The Bonus <3
I hope you're all safe and well in these crazy times. With the lockdown and being shut in, I finally got my act together and learned to improve my video making. The thing is, when I got it figured out, I wasn't sure what to talk about!
I hope you're all well and safe in
these difficult times. We've been in lockdown in Malaysia for 57 days now.
Amazingly, I haven't killed my husband yet and he hasn't killed me. We're watching ancient black and white films, and
the cats are keeping us on our toes in terms of Tummy Rubs and Treats.
BUT I'm writing because it's ready!
Ruthless Sinner, the latest Zeta cartel novel, will go live on Friday 29th
May 2020.
Ruthless Sinner will be on KU. If
you want to buy it, you get the special low price of 99 cents. <3
Please do share with your friends!
In 24 hours, I put it up to $1.99.
The day it goes live, the price will be $2.99.
As always, I'm looking for help to
get the word out. Could you please share the book link on your social media?
I do hope you enjoy reading it as
much as I enjoyed writing it. I think Coop is my new favourite hero 😊
Otherwise, enjoy and hope to see
you all soon.
Hugs,
Ellen
Ruthless Sinner
Determined to get her mother the
healthcare she needs, drop dead gorgeous Spirit Westcott works as a stripper,
not caring that it cements her reputation as
the Beauview village bad girl. But when Spirit
falls foul of John Cooper, the newest member of the notorious Zeta Cartel, she
loses her job. Furious, Spirit confronts Coop–only to discover his
secret drug lab. When Coop decides to save her, by
disappearing her and keeping her captive, Spirit is less than impressed.
However, she quickly learns that Coop has an even deadlier secret, and one that
may drag her into the abyss.
When dangerous, single-minded John
Cooper learns his best friend was murdered, he
resolves to exact bloody vengeance. The knowledge that his prey is a Zeta, one
of Mexico's most dangerous cartels, doesn’t stop him. Coop joins the
organisation, only to discover that finding his prey won't be easy. To his
annoyance, sexy Spirit Westcott is also a spanner in the works. After
embarrassing him in public, Coop suddenly finds himself saddled with her as an
unwanted captive. Then, just as things couldn't get worse, a killer starts to
pick off Beauview village girls. As Coop is drawn
further into the cartel, he is forced to make
decisions that may cost him his life–and that of his love.
Ruthless Sinner is a gripping tale of vengeance, murder, cartel violence and
finding love in the darkest of times.
Dark Hunter differs from the other Zeta cartel novels. In the other novels, Kyle, Arturo, Quique and
Jorge are thoroughly human. They love their family and friends. They just
happen to be career criminals. Rip, the dark hunter, is different.
When we first meet Rip we see him track and catch his prey.
When he gets to his victim, we see he is so filled with pain from loss that he
has overloaded. He is human, but he is not in control. He is insane from grief.
Then, as he starts his murder, evil consumes him. Rip calls
it his monster. It rushes in and by the end of the first chapter the human part
of Rip has been burnt out completely. The bit that is left looks human but
there is nothing inside. Rip is basically an empty vessel for the monster, a
beast that lives for the hunt.
That's why I started the book with the quote from Nietzsche,
“Whoever fights with monsters should see to it that he does not become a
monster in the process. And when you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also
gazes into you.”
Rip stared into the abyss and it rose up and consumed him.
Most of my characters are pretty dark. After writing about
Kyle the enforcer, Arturo the cartel boss, and Quique the hitman, I wanted to
write a story about a hero who is all monster. A man with no humanity. So, Rip was
born.
As for Morgan, she is blueblood Cartel. She grew up with
violence, she knows exactly how it works and she can see its deep dark
seductive power. But she made a moral decision and turned her back on it.
It takes incredible strength to do that. Morgan did it and
she expected to be rewarded with a civilian life rich with ordinary blessings
like a marriage, children, friendships – and a general absence of gore, blood and
violence.
But she miscalculated. Because she is in a small town and
everybody knows her history, she is not accepted. When we meet her, Morgan is
essentially existing in limbo.
Now when the monster meets Morgan something very interesting
happens. Rip does not become human because of Morgan's goodness. He is
incapable of that. He simply sees her as a toy, an interesting thing to play
with. And as a bit of camo so he can pretend to be human because the cartel
don't like monsters.
Morgan is terrified of the monster until she sees that he has
absolutely no intention of hurting her. She knows it's not a kindness in him,
that it’s only because it would spoil his game. Morgan is not fooled into
thinking the monster has any humanity.
Then Morgan does something very remarkable: she reaches into
the abyss and tries to search for the human. She hopes to find the man Rip was
once.
When Rip realises what she is doing, he tells her to stop
because he knows there is just no human left. Morgan does not give up. She also
starts telling Rip how to protect himself from the cartel. This is necessary
because the monster has been living outside of human society for so long, that
he has forgotten even the most basic social niceties.
With Morgan teaching the
monster how to survive amongst the very flawed humans that are the cartel, she
hopes this will reawaken the human in him.The thing is, Rip learns to mimic the cartel, but he remains a monster.
The only person he has feelings for is Morgan.
Morgan is a good person and she never really understands the
truth. At the end of the novel, she thinks that she has brought Rip back into
the fold.
So, Dark Hunter is a bittersweet romance.
Like I said, Dark Hunter is the least accessible of my
stories. Rip is not lovable, but he has three things going for him. The first
two are easy to see: Rip is very brave, and he has an excellent sense of humour
- a nasty one because he is a monster. The final positive is that he is self
aware, seeing he is a monster, and he also knows Morgan is a force for good.
Most monsters destroy their antithesis, but Rip recognises she is his superior.
Morgan I'm afraid is also not very lovable. I feel that is
my fault because I'm not very fond of moral people. I never did like Fanny Price;
I always preferred Mary Crawford.
My Morgan doesn't preach or anything, she just quietly does
what she knows is right. Maybe if I had her running around in circles and having
agonies of thought and emo attacks, she would be more accessible. But Morgan is
ex-cartel. She'd be damned if people saw her flinch!
She's also not beautiful. There is a strong push to having
pretty heroines because romance is about escapism and a large number of readers
crave to read about beauty. Also, sweet feminine heroines are currently popular
because of the rise of fundamentalist Islam in Asia and the religious Right in
the USA and Europe.
So, would it have killed me to make Morgan pretty and much
more interested in clothes and feminine stuff? No, but this is where my writing
ethos comes into play.
When you write, you have ask, "Okay, what do I want out
of this? Do I want financial success? A piece of art? To help people with
advice or maybe just to entertain?"
I write because my creative journey teaches me about myself
and other people. Living with Rip helped me see into the darker parts of my
character. It was the same with creating Morgan. She helped clarify a few ideas
to me.
It may seem a little odd to be writing about my dark pornographic pulp
fiction novels in this way, as if they are True Literature, but I spent a year
and a half writing this book. I wrote and rewrote and thought about it, sweated
over it, and then I did it all over again.
When I re-read it last week, I could see all the flaws in it
because well that's what authors do. We're like software engineers; there's
always one more tweak to make, and that leads to a total overhaul of the
product. Honestly, it's a disease.
Anyway, writing for myself means that sometimes I am
developing characters and situations that do have broad appeal (Helpless sold super
well as did The Bonus). Dark Hunter was not one of those times but that's okay.
I'm very glad I wrote it and I think that's what matters. At
the end of your 120k words and months of sweat and tears, you ask yourself,
“Was is it was a good experience?” and I have to say, “It was worth it.”
So, there you go. If you have comments, brickbats or whatever,
I'm always interested in hearing from you
